First: I’m not moving to Texas. I’m here. End of story.

 

Second: I’m not good at blogging. So, forgive me for rambling. A lot. Probably.

 

Third: I am so very appreciate of those of you out who have been so supportive. Unconditionally. Loving. My photo families that have made me a part of their lives for every special moment. You are my why. You keep me going. I am so so so thankful for you. You know who you are.

 

Now, here goes.

 

I’m sorry.

 

Now that that’s out of the way, I’ll explain. Two things have contributed to me being extremely absent lately. Neither of which make up for being slow to communicate, deliver, reach out to you all, etc. You all deserve better than that. I realize this and apologize to each and every one of you, from the bottom of my heart.

 

This summer, an event happened that caused me to lose my trust in others, lose some of my passion, if only temporarily and took the joy out of doing what I love. Luckily, I now have a new amazing appreciation for those in my life because of what happened. For that, I am very thankful.

 

I became a photographer so I could be a mom first. I’ve always tried to make this clear. My kids are sick enough that they need momma? I reschedule sessions. My baby is getting teeth and I can’t edit for a few days? Kids first, photos second. I let people know this and everyone has always been so amazing at understanding that. This fall, my priorities got out of line. I was working every hour of the day, it seemed. “No, I can’t play right now. I’m working” was repeated to my 5 year old every hour, every time he asked. I would make dinner and go back to work. No family time, no play time, no relaxing with my husband. I was a booming career woman now! I didn’t have time for petty things like family and relationships with loved ones. Those could wait. Except they couldn’t. My relationships with my kids, husband, parents, best friends, all suffered. Hours of play time with my kids that I will never get back are gone because I was too worried about work. Granted, my work, your memories, are extremely important. To me and to you. Please don’t think I am trying to discredit or devalue them. But I wasn’t managing time wisely and my family was hurt because of it. One day, I realized this. It hit me like a ton of bricks. In order to fix things, I over compensated. Now, instead of MY family hurting, your families were hurting. And I am incredibly sorry. That was never my intention. Please know that you all, each and every client, mean so much to me.

 

So, there you have it. Things are on track now. CJP is back. And here to stay. (In Kansas, NOT Texas. Just to reiterate that. lol)

 

Thank you again for the unending support and love.

 

-C